BR78T1 - Can I strip myself of the network of language?

Brockwood Park, UK - 26 August 1978
Public Talk 1
Text-only version
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K: I see all my old friends are here!
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0:34
If I may
ask most politely and respectfully
please don't make this into a festive occasion.
It is not a pop festival
but rather we are a serious group
not inclined to frivolity
but a rather earnest, serious group of people
who will want, or desire
to enquire into the whole complex problem of living.
And if one may point out again
there is no speaker here
though he is sitting on the platform
but actually the speaker doesn't exist
because then you will be merely listening to the speaker
and not actually investigating for yourself.
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So please, if I may again suggest most earnestly
that there is no speaker but we are together investigating
exploring, enquiring into something
which is life with all its complex and varied problems.
So we are sharing this thing together.
The speaker is not here.
And I want to make that quite clear.
But rather together we are taking a journey into ourselves
and demanding the excellence of ourselves.
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3:20
We are never challenged
psychologically
we may be challenged outwardly
we may demand outwardly better materials
better workmanship, better schools, better politics:
the challenge is for the better outwardly, always.
But apparently very few of us enquire
and challenge ourselves with the highest form
of both intellectual, ethical, moral action, psychologically.
And if we may, we are going to go into this question together
that we are challenging ourselves deeply
demanding the highest form of intellectual and
I would not like to use the word 'emotional'
because that tends to become sentimental
but rather the highest form of affection
the highest form of love.
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And why is it that human beings
who have lived for millennia upon millennia
are living the way we are doing now
confused, unhappy, miserable, uncertain
and outwardly in the world, as one observes
things are getting worse and worse and worse.
The more you produce, the more we are using
the things of the earth, we are destroying the earth.
And inwardly, spiritually if I may use that word
we have lost all sense of religious excellence.
I am using the word 'religious' in the sense
of not belief, not dogma, not rituals
not the varied form of hierarchical, theological assertions
but the religious person is one who has no self at all.
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That seems to me the highest form of religious action
where the 'me', the ego, the self, doesn't exist at all.
And that is the highest form of intelligence
and excellence ethically and in action.
So we are going, if I may, into these problems.
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6:52
So you are not listening to a speaker
but rather listening to yourself
and challenging yourself
not accepting anything but the highest form of clarity
the highest form of behaviour
and so excellence in action.
That is what we are going to go together into this question.
So please you are listening to yourself
you are listening not according to your particular like and dislike
including those, but actually listening to what is going on
and demanding why we live as we do now in this appalling
frightening, destructive way we are living.
Right?
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8:14
I think that is the most serious question we have to ask of ourselves.
When outwardly everything is disintegrating
there is no question about it
terrorism, which is the ultimate form of war
there are the terrorists, divided nations
all that is going on in the world
400 billion dollars a year spent on armaments
the world all over.
So we are all crazy people.
And to allow all this, each one of us
must find out for oneself what is the right action
with regard to all these external events
what is one to do, which must be correct, accurate, true.
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And that can only be found out for ourselves
if we are challenging our actions
our way of life, which is jobs, occupation
relationship with each other
and the utter lack of clarity in thought
the sloppiness of our thinking.
And to live a totally different kind of life
not merely based on pleasure, on fear and so on.
So we are going together
to find, if we can
all the answers to these questions for ourselves.
If that is clear between you and the speaker
and the speaker is not here
if it is very clear with what we are concerned with
then we have established a certain kind of relationship with each other.
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If we are all concerned the same thing
not with our particular opinions and judgements
our intellectual theories
but rather be concerned together seriously
at least for today and for the few days while you are here
concerned to find out a way of life
that may bring a different world into being.
Right?
So that is our question.
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12:21
If we are going to enquire together
obviously the first step is
to put aside all our personal prejudices
our personal desires, our petty problems of the moment
and so have the capacity
to enquire freely and deeply.
Capacity doesn't come through constant practice
psychologically we are talking about.
It comes when there is direct interest
and the challenge to which you must respond with all your highest capacity
then you have the capacity to enquire freely.
13:30
Otherwise you will merely be playing with words.
The words are important
because they convey a certain meaning
but if words drive us
if words force us into certain conclusions
certain actions, then language, words
control us, shape us, force us.
That again is very clear, isn't it?
Either language uses us, or we use language.
But most of us are driven by language.
In the word 'Communist' you have all kinds of fearful ideas
not that the Communists are not fearful.
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And if you say 'I am British', immediately certain reactions arise.
So words, language drive us, shape us
shape our thinking, our behaviour, our action.
In realising that
the slavery to language
but if we know how to use language
the exact meaning of words
the content and the significance of the depth of the word
then we are using language unemotionally
unsentimentally, not identified with a particular word
then we can communicate with each other directly and very simply.
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If I stick to the word 'Hindu' or an 'Indian'
and that word shapes my thinking, my prejudices, all that nonsense
then the word 'Indian' or 'Hindu' forces me to act in a certain way.
But whereas if I am free of that word 'Hindu'
with all its national, limited, superstitious significance
then I am free to understand the human being who is behind the word.
Right?
Are we meeting each other?
At least I hope so.
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16:40
So here we are using language
and the language is not using us
we are using the language unemotionally
language which is pliable
correct according to the dictionary
so we can both of us communicate with each other
very simply and directly when we use the word unemotionally
the word which hasn't got tremendous psychological content behind it.
Can we do this?
For most of us it is extraordinarily difficult
because we have identified ourselves with the word
and the word is us - I am a British, I am a Hindu.
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Can we strip ourselves of this network of language
which is driving us, shaping us
and unemotionally use words that are simple, direct
and therefore a word that doesn't bring about psychological reactions?
Right?
Can we do this, first of all?
If we can, then we can enquire together
because we are free of the word which drives us
but we are using the word directly.
I hope this is clear.
Am I making the thing clear?
At least I hope so.
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18:42
Then knowing the meaning of words unemotionally
without any reaction to the word
then we can enquire into this whole problem
of our way of living, why we live this way
why every day of our life is conflict, violent
selfish, narrow, limited, anxious, fearful, uncertain
a muddle in which we live.
So we are challenging ourselves
to find out why we live this way.
Why we are mechanical in our relationship
in our ways of thinking
why we tolerate any form of violence
both in ourselves and externally
why though man has lived for thousands and thousands
and thousands of years he lives in sorrow, without any love
frightened, miserable, utterly unintelligent.
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20:33
So we are going to begin to enquire together
using words unemotionally without any reaction
to find out why we have become so intellectually
ethically mechanical.
Right?
We are just stating facts, not conclusions.
It is not a conclusion to say we are mechanical, we are
we are caught in a routine whether in the office
or when you come home from your labours
exactly the same repetitive process goes on
sexually, ethically, in our daily action.
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21:39
Some of us realise it
and try to escape from them by becoming revolutionaries
physical revolutionaries, or ideological revolutionaries.
Physical revolution doesn't bring about anything.
That is obvious, in spite of the terrorists.
Psychologically, inwardly, inside the skin as it were
why have we become mechanical?
I mean by that word 'mechanical'
action based on pleasure
action based on fear
action based on authority
action according to a certain pattern of thinking
action along evasion
avoiding, running away and never facing the fact as we are.
These are not conclusions, these are obvious daily facts.
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And again please, you are listening to yourself
though the speaker may express it, put it into words
though the speaker is not here
you are listening to yourself and finding out
challenging yourselves why we live this mechanical existence.
You may leave one set of ideologies
Christian or Communist and join another set of ideologies.
You may give up being a Catholic and become a Protestant or a Hindu
or if you are rather advanced you go off into Zen Buddhism
or if you are still more advanced
you go off into Krishnamurti stuff!
(Laughter)
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24:31
So it's all You understand
how never demanding for ourselves what is the right thing to do
always depending on somebody
gurus, this person or that person.
So what is the right action in a world that is crumbling
that is becoming daily more frightening
where there are so many divisions of beliefs
dogmas, nationalities and so on, so on, so on
religious and every form of division.
What is the right action for each one of us
in our daily life with our occupations and so on
what is the right action, what is the correct way of living?
If you challenge yourselves
and I hope you are doing it now
what are you to do?
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25:54
So we have to enquire: What is action?
Right?
What do we mean by that word 'action'
whether you are married, whether you are not married
whether you are in the office, whether you are fairly well off
and independent and so on and so on and so on
what is the correct thing to do in my life
facing all this, not according to any pattern
obviously, that is not correct action
not based on certain ideologies
that also is not correct action
because those ideologies are projected by thought
clever, cunning thought.
And action based according to certain authority
whether religious, political
or your own particular authority
based on your own experience and knowledge
that is not correct action either.
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Please understand all this
because if you base your action on your own experience
then your experience is very limited
and you are constantly demanding
greater and greater and greater experience
which is greater and greater sensation, not experience.
The word 'experience' means to go through, finish with something.
And action based on a past conclusion
however right, however worthy, but it is still from the past
and therefore still limited in terms of time.
Or if your action is based on a future conclusion
on a future ideology or a future ideal
that again is not correct action
because you have projected the ideal
what you should be, or what your country should be
or what your group should be
and act according to what should be
therefore you are not acting at all.
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Action implies doing something now
independent of the past and the future.
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This is really quite fascinating and tremendously interesting
if I may use these words which are not the correct words
but it doesn't matter for the moment
to find out for oneself:
is there an action totally devoid of time?
You understand?
Time being the past with all my memories, knowledge
experience, stored up in the brain as memory
and acting according to that memory
which is the past acting in the present
or the past, which has had so many experiences
so many failures, so many anxieties, fears, sorrows
projects something in the future as ideological
what should be, how happy it would be
and act according to that, which again is non-action.
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30:31
Right?
At least let's meet together intellectually
then if you understand that intellectually
then you can go still deeper into it
at least we can understand each other at that level
which is very limited.
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30:53
Then: is there an action in daily life
in our daily relationship with each other
intimate or not intimate, sexual or not sexual
is there an action which will be holistic, whole
which is not dependent on time, on environment, on circumstances?
So we are challenging: is there such an action?
Or we only know action based on the past, or on the future.
We don't know any other action
and we accept such action
it is much more convenient, more comfortable
easy to accept such action.
So we are challenging each other to find out if it is possible
to live a life of correct action
which is not dependent on environment
on circumstances, on the past, or on the future.
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You understand?
This is the most difficult thing to find out.
When you want to find out such an action
if there is such an action
thought immediately begins to operate.
Thought says 'Is there such a thing?
' 'I must enquire'
So thought is the past - isn't it?
Thought is the outcome of memory
thought is the result of your experience
accumulated knowledge and from that arises memory
and then from the reaction of that memory is thinking.
That is simple, very simple if you go into it.
It is not complicated.
So when there is such a challenge as saying:
is there action which is not dependent on the past
or the future, or on environment, circumstances
then thought begins to operate.
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Right? That is what you are doing.
Then thought says, 'I must find out such action'
Since thought cannot find such action, you say that's impossible.
You are following all this?
We are all together in this, or am I talking to myself?
I can do that in my room.
But I don't, anyhow, but so.
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34:26
So action based on thought is limited
because thought in itself is a broken up thing, a fragment
limited because it is based on knowledge
and knowledge however much you may accumulate
however much you may accumulate facts
expanding knowledge over and over
expanding constantly, it is still limited.
That is obvious again.
Perhaps not to the people
who advocate the ascent of man through knowledge
because that is their particular form of conclusion.
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But when one sees actually, in daily life
how knowledge is so extraordinarily limited
you may have technological knowledge, and you must have
and to that knowledge more can be added
it can be constantly expanded
but is there the accumulation of psychological knowledge
from which action takes place?
You understand?
Are we
All right.
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36:14
One has accumulated knowledge, psychologically.
I have been hurt
many years ago as a boy, or a girl, I have been hurt.
And that hurt has become my knowledge
it is there inside my skin.
And I act according to that knowledge, which is I resist
I isolate myself in order not to be hurt more.
And so there is constant division between me and another
to prevent being further hurt.
This is a common fact again.
So I act according to that knowledge.
I may see the irrationality of it.
I may go to psychologists.
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I may do all kinds of things about it
but the wound is still there
and that wound is responding all the time.
So I am acting according to a past incident
whether that past incident is pleasurable or painful is irrelevant
but it is the past event, which is my knowledge.
I have had a lovely afternoon - that becomes my knowledge.
I am going to have a marvellous day tomorrow
and again, you follow?
- this whole process is based on
the accumulative process of experience, desire and pleasure.
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38:26
So is there an action which is totally independent of all this?
You understand my question?
To enquire into that, the operation of thought
must be understood because you can't stop thinking.
If you force, as many people do through meditation
which is not meditation, try to control thought
shape thought, then they have divided themselves
into the thinker who is superior and thought, inferior
and so the superior tries to control the inferior - you know all this.
So is there a way
of an action which is totally divorced from all this?
We are challenging you
I am challenging you and you are challenging me
together we are in a state of being challenged.
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39:57
Perhaps if you have challenged sufficiently deeply and earnestly
and with all your being
then you will find an answer, which is, I will tell you
but we are discussing this together
we are sharing this together
therefore I am not telling you and you are not accepting it
because then it becomes futile
then we might just as well go to some guru.
But whereas if you can discover this for yourself
then you are free - you understand?
You have understood action in all its full meaning
and its depth and the beauty of action.
We say - the speaker says there is such an action
devoid completely from the past or the future
from environment, from circumstances.
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It is to have an insight
into the total movement of thought
as it expresses itself in the environment, circumstances
past and future, which is to have insight into action.
That is, insight is not the response of memory.
Right?
Hasn't it ever happened to you, suddenly you say
'I have understood it'?
without words, without gestures, without circumstances
without the past, you suddenly feel by Jove, I've got it.
And that is irrevocable, it is ultimate truth
you can't say, well I have got it, next day I have lost it.
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42:25
So we are going to find out together
the meaning of this word 'insight'.
To have an insight into something is not personal
is not based on some ideological conclusions, memories, remembrances.
One must be free of that to have an instant insight into something.
One must be free of knowledge to have immediate perception.
This is not something extravagant, exotic, or rather emotional
but actual.
Where, if you have ever had this kind of immediate understanding
and therefore immediate action
that immediate understanding demands immediate action irrelevant of time.
Hasn't it happened?
It happens, obviously
but then thought says, 'I have had that insight
I have had that strange deep perception
nd therefore from that immediate action
but I wish it would continue all the time'.
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You understand?
I want that insight, that immediate perception
immediate understanding, to continue.
When you say it must continue
you have already begun the whole movement of thought.
I wonder if you see this.
Insight, the quick perception of something
is instantaneous and finished there.
You can't carry it over.
Whereas thought demands that it should be carried over
therefore prevents the next insight.
I wonder if you get all this.
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45:04
Have we understood something of this
because it is very important
because from this we can go into something
further where quick insight is demanded
so that you never have to struggle, never have to have conflict.
Because when you are acting upon insight it is an irrevocable truth.
It is not intuition.
Don't go away We are using the word carefully.
People have intuitions, which is, they desire
project and you know all that kind of ugly stuff.
This is insight.
Quick perception and action is not personal
therefore it is whole, it is holistic.
And our actions are never whole.
We do something, regret
'I wish I hadn't done that'
or we have done something that gives us pleasure
and we want more of that action.
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So whereas insight is something which is quite simple
but to have such an insight into things
one must have a quick mind, not a dull mind
not a mind that is frightened
or a mind where thought says 'If I do that what will happen?
I might regret it, or there might be failure
it might bring about hurt to others and to myself'
and so action is never total, complete, whole.
Whereas action which is born out of insight
immediate perception, has no regrets because it is actual
it is the only action.
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47:38
Now bearing that in mind
perhaps even intellectually
do you have a quick perception
of what is the whole nature and structure of authority?
Authority of books, authority of professors
authority of scientists, authority of the religious priests
and so on and so on.
Or your own experience, which has become your authority.
To have an immediate insight into it
then you are free totally of all authority.
Then you don't have to fight and struggle to say
'I accept this authority, I don't accept that authority.
The authority of my guru is marvellous
but I reject the authority of the priest'.
They are exactly the same thing.
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48:58
So in discussing, in being challenged
and challenging each other, are you free of authority?
There is the authority of the policeman
there is the authority of the law
the authority of the surgeon
that perhaps has its right place
but is there psychological authority of a belief, of a dogma
of a conclusion, of an ideology, the Communist, Socialist
or whatever authority, religious, inwardly?
If you have then you will never find out what is right action
obviously.
Right?
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49:54
So in enquiring step by step into this are you actually
if I may most respectfully ask, free of authority
including the authority of this person
sitting on the platform at this moment?
If you are not
find out why you accept
authority
inwardly.
Objectively you need authority.
Right?
You can't drive on the right hand side in England
you would have accidents.
If you reject authority of some State laws
you will be punished and so on and so on
there authority has its right place.
But inwardly, deeply, not to have any form of authority.
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51:15
Then we can proceed to enquire
into why human beings live constantly in a state of fear.
Right?
Shall we go into that?
Why you as a human being
who is the representative of all humanity
right?
- I wonder if you realise that.
That you as a human being represent the entire human mind
because you suffer, you are uncertain
you are caught in certain beliefs
or you are conditioned, you are British
you are French, you are German, or this or that
and you believe in this Jesus or Christ
or somebody else doesn't believe in that
and you are a Hindu, a Muslim, you follow?
So are you aware that in your relationship
in your daily activity, there is a sense of great fear.
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Right? Is one aware of it?
If one is, then to have a - now look:
if you have fear the natural response
I won't call it natural - the irrational response is
to cultivate courage, whatever that may mean
or to run away from it
or rationalise it - why shouldn't I be afraid
it is natural and so on and so on.
Or you identify your fear and yourself
yourself and fear are one
there is not you separate from fear
so that fear which is you identifies itself with something greater
and says in that surrender to the greater I have lost fear.
We have played all these kind of games for centuries.
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And we still have fear, at the end of a million years
every human being right through the world has some kind of fear.
Now to have a quick insight into it
and therefore be totally free from it.
Is that possible?
Because fear is the most dreadful thing, it makes you
you know all the rest of it, what the result of fear is
neuroticism of every kind
escape into various forms of entertainment
religious and otherwise
rationalising fears and accepting fear as part of our daily existence.
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55:05
Now we are asking: is it possible
to have an insight into the whole nature and structure of fear
and be free of it?
Don't you want to know if you can be free of fear?
Or do you accept, as we accept so many things, as a part of life?
If you don't accept it as part of life
then what is the nature of fear?
What is the root of fear?
What is the substance, the structure, the whole movement of fear?
Not only fear of one's wife or husband, girl - you know, fear
in its entirety, not one particular form of fear.
Don't you want to find out?
In the sense, don't you want to give your mind
your thought, your being, your whole energy to find out
whether it is possible to eradicate totally fear?
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56:57
Fear has many forms
one of the major factors of fear is attachment
attachment to a person, attachment to an ideal
to a belief, attachment to a piece of furniture
you know what attachment is.
And where there is attachment
there is inevitably the fear of losing.
And is it possible to exist without isolating, without attachment?
You understand my question?
Is it possible for a human being
who has lived ten thousand years and more
lived always in fear as part of his life
from the caveman till now
is it possible to uncondition himself from fear?
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As we said, one of the factors of fear is attachment.
To find out if one is attached, not avoid it
find out to see if one is attached to something
to your guru, to your knowledge, to your furniture
to your friend, to your wife, girl, boy or whatever it is
attached to your country.
Where there is attachment there is jealousy
there is possessiveness
there is a sense of identifying oneself with something else.
And when there is that attachment and identification
there is always uncertainty.
These are facts, aren't they?
No?
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59:33
So can you be free of attachment
not tomorrow or when you are on the deathbed
then of course it is very simple to be detached!
(Laughter)
You can't argue with death.
But now living your daily life
to be free of every form of attachment
without becoming isolated, which again breeds fear.
I may detach myself from this
and from everything else and suddenly feel I am lonely
sense of emptiness
and being frightened of that emptiness
begin again being attached, not to a person, but to some marvellous ideal.
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All that, in every form
of attachment brings fear.
A man or a woman who really enquires and demands, challenges himself
whether you can ever be free of fear
then we have to have a quick insight
into the whole nature of attachment.
Have you, as we are talking, exploring with each other
have your got this feeling, this insight
this immediate perception of the whole nature of attachment
and its structure with all
the complications involved in it, see it instantly.
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And when you see it in all its totality it is finished.
It doesn't mean you become callous.
It doesn't mean you become isolated.
On the contrary: you are a free human being
who is no longer held down by fear.
Right?
That is only one expression of fear.
Perhaps the deepest expression of fear
of losing what you have.
Actually you have nothing but that is irrelevant.
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1:02:33
So what is the root of all this fear?
You see most of us are inclined
to trim the branches of fear.
Right?
I am afraid of this thing therefore let me get rid of it
or let me go to somebody who will help me to be free of fear
of that particular expression of fear
the psychologist, the priest, the analyst
the latest gurus and all that business.
But we are not concerned with the trimming of the tree of fear
but rather to uncover the root of fear
so that when you see the root of it
and have a depth of understanding of the root
then if you have such an understanding
and this is an insight, then fear disappears completely
you are no longer afraid psychologically.
1:03:51
Physically it is a different matter.
Physically
one must be careful
one must be rational, sane
unless you are extraordinarily neurotic
then that is a different matter.
But physically one must be watchful of danger
as you would be watchful of a precipice
as you would be watchful of a dangerous animal
and perhaps human beings are becoming
more and more dangerous than any animal.
So one has to be watchful of human beings
the terrorists, the politicians
are there any politicians here?
(Laughter)
And very watchful of gurus (laughter) and so on and on and on.
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1:05:04
So one understands the watchfulness, the danger - physical.
But what is the root of psychological fear?
Please challenge, ask yourself.
Don't accept my challenge.
Ask yourself what is the root of all this.
Don't say 'I don't know'
and just leave it like that, or draw some conclusion.
If you do, it will prevent you from finding out the root of it.
If you say, 'I really don't know
what the root of fear is', then you start with humility.
Then you say, 'I really don't know but I am going to find out'.
But if you start with arrogance of saying 'I can solve it.
I know, I have all the facts about fear'
then you are starting with a conclusion
with a sense of hope
which doesn't mean you must be in despair to ask it
but if you are really deeply concerned with
the nature and the structure of fear at its very depth
what is the root of fear?
1:06:53
Those of you who have read or heard the speaker before
don't say 'Yes, I know it'.
That is a cheap trick.
Because you have heard somebody tell you that
and that may be the truth but it is not yours
it is not the truth, it is somebody else's.
There is no your truth or my truth
but if you accept a statement made by somebody like this person
and say 'Yes, I have heard that before
but it hasn't got rid of my fear'
then language is driving you.
You understand?
Language is driving you.
Language is using you.
But if you are free of what you have heard before
but actually demand now as you are sitting there, to find out
what is the essence, the root, the basis of all fear
then as you don't know you come to it afresh
you come to it with a certain sense of curiosity to find out.
1:08:23
But if you come to it already with some conclusion
there is no possibility of your understanding the root of it.
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1:08:32
So let's find out together, afresh
what is the root of this whole nature and the structure of fear.
When you want to find out, if you have a motive
that is, 'I must be free of fear' - which is a motive
then that motive gives a direction to your enquiry.
So the motive which gives a direction prevents you from enquiring.
This is simple, isn't it?
If I have a motive in order to enquire into fear
because I want to get rid of fear
then I have already given a direction to it.
1:09:21
Right?
Because my desire is to get rid of it
not to understand the nature and the structure and the depth of fear.
I want to get rid of the word 'fear'.
So the word 'fear' is driving us.
You understand?
Whereas if you look at it
if you are free of the word and say
'What is this fear which I have lived with for so long?'
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1:10:01
What is it?
Is it time?
time being yesterday, today and tomorrow
sun setting, sun rising.
Which is, is fear the result of time?
Something happened which you are fearful
of a year ago or yesterday
and that fear of that incident remains
and that memory of that thing is called fear.
You are following all this?
The memory of that incident
which took place a year ago or yesterday
has left a certain remembrance
and that remembrance says there is fear.
Right?
So recollection of a word called fear we say, that is fear.
1:11:25
Whereas we are trying to find out
being free of the word, what is the essence of it.
Are you following all this?
Is this getting too tiresome all this?
Tant pis.
What is the root of it?
I say to myself because I am a very serious person
and I have got plenty of energy
I must find it out because I don't want to live with fear.
It is too absurd, too illogical, irrational.
What is the essence of it?
Is it time?
It is partly that, time.
And also
is thought creating fear?
You understand?
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1:12:40
So time, thought.
I have understood more or less the nature of time
time externally, time inwardly, psychologically:
I will be, I am not, I will be
or I should be, whereas I am not.
The 'should be' is the movement of time.
Right?
I wonder if you are
This is important, you are following all this?
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1:13:25
It is a nice morning and I hope you are enjoying this too.
I hope you are having a pleasant, happy time in this enquiry
as you would have a pleasant time sitting on the lawn
and looking at the trees and the clouds and the warm sunshine.
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1:13:55
So what is thought then?
I have understood the nature of time.
Now I want to understand if thought is responsible for fear.
I don't know but I am going to find out.
If thought is responsible
I must understand the whole nature of thought.
What is thinking?
Thinking is the response of memory.
Right?
Obviously.
If you had no memory at all you wouldn't think.
But thinking has become very important for us.
We apply thinking to everything we do.
Is love a remembrance, a thought?
I am not talking of sexual love, sensation, the sensuous love.
1:15:13
I won't even call that love, it is sensation.
Is love sensation?
Is love a remembrance?
And is thought love?
You understand, I am asking all this.
And what is the nature of thought?
Very simply, it is based on the accumulation of knowledge
gathered through experience of millennia, living
which is stored up in the brain
I am not a brain specialist, you can watch yourself
in the brain and the memory responds to a challenge.
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1:16:12
Now I am challenging myself: what is thinking?
And so it says, 'Memory, of course'.
So is memory responsible for fear?
I have been hurt physically last year
I remember that and I am afraid it might come back again
the disease, or the pain, or whatever it is.
That is
thought based on an experience of last year's or yesterday's pain
remembering it and being frightened of it
that it mustn't happen again.
All our action, all our existence, is based on thought.
1:17:22
I don't know if you have realised this extraordinary fact:
everything that we do is based on thought.
There is no spontaneity
that is quite a different existence, to be spontaneous.
To have that spontaneity
one must understand the nature of thought
which has conditioned our brain
our whole mental outlook, our activity.
When there is an understanding
immediate insight into this then there is spontaneity
there is freedom.
But that is quite a different matter.
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1:18:05
So we are asking: time, I see is partly responsible.
Thought is also responsible.
Is time thought?
Or thought is time?
You understand?
They are not time and thought, separate.
There is only thought which creates psychological time.
Right?
And therefore having gone into the depth of it
understood it, not intellectually, verbally
but actually seen for oneself the nature of thinking
then one realises thought is basically responsible for fear.
1:19:07
Then one says, 'How then can I stop thinking?'
which is the most absurd question.
You see that is part of the trick of what the gurus have brought.
Which is: meditate, try to control thought, stop thought.
Have you ever tried to stop thinking?
If you have you will find out
that the person who says 'I must stop thinking'
the entity that says that, is also part of thought.
He is playing a trick upon itself.
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1:19:57
So if you see time is thought, time is movement, movement
from yesterday, today, tomorrow.
And also thought is a movement
movement based on past memories, past experiences
past knowledge - knowledge is always the past.
So thought is basically responsible for fear.
You understand?
Now is the word 'fear', fear?
You understand?
Is the word 'fear', actual fear?
Or the word is not that thing.
Are you getting all too tired?
You understand my question?
Is the word different from the thing?
1:21:22
Or is the word creating that thing, fear?
Then the word is driving you
and the word is creating the fear.
Or is there fear independent of the word?
Which is, the word is not the thing.
Right?
You understand?
So have you separated the word from the thing?
You understand?
The tent, the marquee, the word, is not that.
Right?
So when you look at it
can you separate the word from the thing?
You understand my question?
So have you separated the word from the reaction
which you call fear?
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So which means
are you aware that you are caught in the network of words?
And therefore the words are driving you.
So can you look at the thing without the word
which means look at that thing without naming it
which becomes the word.
I wonder if you understand all this!
Look, this requires great alertness
great awareness, of your observation.
It isn't just accepting, 'Yes, I can separate the word
this and that' - play around.
But actually to see that you are caught
your observation is through a word
and therefore the word becomes all important.
1:23:33
So in realising that you say, all right
I will separate the word, put it away, let me look at the thing itself
not with the word interfering with it
the word with all its connotations, its contents.
Let me look at that thing.
Do you understand?
I am expending a lot of energy, I hope you are too.
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1:24:05
So, can you look at fear, the word
the actual sensation without the word?
Or the word is creating the sensation?
The name, fear, is creating that.
You understand?
You can look at the marquee
the word and the fact, the tent, differently
you can separate it and say
'Yes, I can look at it without the word.
I can see the lines, I can see the posts, without the word'.
But to do that psychologically is much more
one has to be extraordinarily alert.
To be so deeply aware of the meaning, the word and the thing.
1:25:08
Now if you are, then the thing you are looking at
without the word, is it fear?
You understand what I am trying to say?
The reaction which you have named as fear
if you don't name it, is that fear, is there fear?
You have come to that after investigating
understanding time and thought.
Thought is time because both are movement.
Time is movement.
Thought is movement.
So they are not two separate things.
Thought creates psychological time.
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1:26:07
So thought has created the word.
The original man or the ape or the aborigine
primate says 'I am afraid' - fear has gone - you follow?
- right down to us - you follow?
And now we are asking: separate the two
the word and the sensation, the reaction and look at it
observe the reaction without the word.
Now when you observe the reaction
is the observer different from the reaction?
You understand?
Or they are both the same, the observer is the observed
the reaction is the observer?
Right?
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1:27:04
I see you don't understand, some of you.
You have been angry
is that anger different from you?
You are only aware of that anger
at the moment of anger you are not
but a second or a minute later you say, 'I have been angry'.
You have separated yourself from that thing called anger
and so there is a division.
Similarly (laughs)
Is the reaction which you call fear different from you?
Obviously it is not.
So you and that reaction are the same.
When you realise that, you don't fight it, you are that.
Right?
I wonder if you see it.
Then a totally different action takes place
which is, before, you have used positive action with regard to fear
say, 'I must not be afraid, I will deny it
I'll control it, I must do this and that about it
go to a psychologist' - you know, all the rest of it.
1:28:41
Now when you realise, when there's the fact - not realise
when there is the fact that you are the reaction
there is no you separate from that reaction.
Then you can't do anything, can you?
I wonder if you realise, you can't do anything.
Therefore a negation, a negative
a non-positive observation is the ending of fear.
Right?
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1:29:23
What time is it?
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1:29:27
Q: One o'clock.
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1:29:32
K: Forgive me for talking an hour and a half, I didn't realise it.
I hope you aren't bored
you aren't stiff sitting in the same position.
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1:29:41
Q: Don't be afraid. We enjoyed it. (Laughter)
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1:29:43
K: Good. We will meet tomorrow again.
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1:29:47
Q: Thank you.
(Clapping)
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1:29:58
K: Please don't clap. It isn't worth it.
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